A Promise Broken

Thus the remainder of the day passed:  while Baker watched, Pony and the Indian smoked a short stone pipe and drank more whiskey.  This went on until sunset.  Under the stars they unspitted the antelope meat and ate heartily.  Pony and Catcher continued drinking until the crock of whiskey was consumed, at which point Catcher stood on unsteady legs and pulled a section of red flannel cloth from his belt.  He raised the cloth in his hand and turned his face to the sky to sing a Cheyenne brave-heart song, but instead lost his balance, doubled over and vomited, collapsed on his side and began to snore.

Pony, cup in hand, belched loudly and rose.  He staggered out onto the prairie and pissed.  He rubbed his belly, turned and staggered over to face the lieutenant by the fire.  He set the cup down and Baker watched as the man collapsed in the dirt,  a reeking amalgam of whiskey and sweat.

Pony struggled to a sitting position and leaned toward the lieutenant, who turned his face to avoid the mephitic gust of breath.  Pony spoke:  Ye mustnt think poorly of the man. 

He pointed at the recumbent Catcher.

He’s had a time of it, Pony continued.  Got into a scrap with another buck over a woman awhile back.  Had to kill him.  Pony shook his head.  Cheyenne don’t hold with that.  Banished him from their camps.

After I done for that forty-niner at Laramie, he said, I lived with the Cheyenne awhile.  At’s when we met. 

Pony picked up his cup and took another swallow of whiskey. 

Done a good little bit of business together over the years, he said.  Horses, mostly.

Strange, said Baker.  He didn’t seem at all glad to see you.

Waugh, said Pony, waving a hand as if to remove the fact. Three summers ago we had a string of ponies.  I drove em to Kearny to sell.  On the way back I stopped in Dobytown.  Paid some attention to a woman there.  Lulu LaPierre.  Sweet little Lulu.

He took another drink of whiskey.

She absconded with our purse, he said, shaking his head.  I tried to explain…

He leaned forward, eyes half-lidded from the whiskey.  I’ll tell you this, he continued, wagging a filthy finger in the soldier’s face.  An Indian will never forgive misdealins with horses.

He tilted back to rest on his elbows.  Sonofabitch shot at me.

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Flies woke Pony.  They tickled his nostrils and walked on his eyelids, explored his ears and swarmed at his lips.  He slapped at them and coughed and tried to spit but was dry from the whiskey.  He rose stiffly and walked to the wagon and lifted a small wooden cask that originally held lamp oil but now served to water Catcher’s animals in dry country.  The taste was worse than the smell, but such was his need that he drank without hesitation.

  He looked at the sky.  The sun was overhead.  Noon, he thought.  The air was hot and the horizon shimmered.  The Indian hadn’t moved from the spot where he fell, his black hair still fanned out over the bare ground, gray with dust. 

One of Catcher’s horses whinnied.  Pony turned and shaded his dry, stinging eyes.  Lt. Baker was coming in from the direction of Cottonwood Springs.  He had awakened before dawn to build a fire and eat and then rode in to send a telegram to Kearny.  It stated that current intelligence indicated the girl was taken by Dog Soldiers from a band led by the Cheyenne Little Wound; the lieutenant, Pony and an Indian recruited by Pony would embark immediately to locate the hostiles.

Another hour passed before the Indian stirred.  He raised himself to a sitting position and then crawled to the shade of the tarpaulin shelter, where he joined Pony, who had sought relief by unstopping another jug of whiskey. 

Baker assembled his camp belongings as the pair passed the jug back and forth.  Their speech became slurred once again and their horses went unsaddled and the packs remained where they had been unloaded yesterday. 

By the time Baker had finished his tasks the sun was low in the sky.  The lieutenant spoke:  You said we would leave today.

Pony and the Indian ignored him.

It’s plain to see the major was correct in his estimate of you, said Baker.

Pony looked at him.

You, sir, are a lying drunkard, said Baker.

Pony wiped his mouth on his sleeve.  True, I am not exactly sober at the moment, he said.  But I don’t recall a single fib since I awoke.

Yesterday you said we’d be leaving today.

Did I?  Well, that was not a lie.  A simple misstatement of fact is all.  No malice, no harm intended.

No harm?  That little girl continues to live at the mercy of the murderers of her family.

Pony took another pull from the jug.  Lieutenant, the horses can use the rest.  And I don’t believe one more day in her present circumstance will alter the outcome for her in any way.

He looked at Catcher, who was dozing.  Besides, he chuckled, I don’t think the Indian will be ready until morning. 

I don’t know anything about that man, said Baker, except he possesses the same bad habits as you.  And I have no agreement with him.

Pony’s smile dwindled.  His lips tightened and he got to his feet.  He picked up the jug and the cob stopper and took two steps toward Baker.  He raised his right arm and pointed to the horizon.

Tariff’s high out there, he said. 

He dropped his arm and continued:  Him and me, we been in a few tight spots.  

He looked at the reclined Indian, then back at Baker, eyes narrowed. 

He’s… he’s four-square in a predicament, is what I’m sayin.     

He leaned toward Baker. 

Which is more than I know about you, lieutenant.

Pony turned and took a step toward the wagon, stopped and turned back to Baker.

You want to ride, go ahead. 

The scout stoppered the jug and walked away. 

Catcher

When Lieutenant Baker woke the following day the sky was overcast, the color of gunmetal.  In the distance curtains of rain obscured the southern horizon.

Pony was nowhere to be seen. 

He was tempted to call out but remembered Pony’s caution about noise.  The horses were still hobbled and grazing, so he walked to the top of the draw in which they’d camped.  A low bench of a hill marked the only prominence for miles around.  Baker saw Pony, prone, at the summit.

It took him five minutes to walk to it, and when he reached the base Pony turned and looked at him.  The scout held a finger to his lips and motioned Baker to come forward.  The lieutenant crawled to the top.

At great distance to the north a line of dark spots moved across the open ground.  Unhurried.  Baker counted:  twenty. 

Indians?

Pony nodded.

Cheyenne?

Cant tell.

What do we do? 

Nothin.

Where do you think they’re going?

Dont know.  Away from us is all I care.

Why don’t we follow them?

Pony looked at Baker.

Suit yourself, lieutenant, but my business is west of here…  Cottonwood Springs. For now I’d advise finding some cover.

They moved down from the hill and gathered the horses and checked the loads in their weapons.  They rode west, rifles across their saddle bows, until they came to a sparse grove of cottonwood trees.  They spent the rest of the day among the trees, both men posting themselves at the edge, watching.

In the dimming light they mounted again and rode through the night.  Pony led the pack animals and Baker rode behind.  From the starless night sky a pounding rain fell, their little train visible only in the intervals of lightning, horses with flattened ears and tails dripping, riders hunched at the shoulder, unavailing against the storm.

At length the rain subsided, and just before dawn they came upon a cluster of sod buildings, between which were stacked crates and wagon parts.  Across a wide, muddy thoroughfare stood corrals and a half dozen crude log structures.  The walls featured loopholes for rifles.  A line of wired telegraph poles stretched across the prairie.  Smoke of early morning cookfires spiraled from the stovepipes of several of the buildings.

The horses’ hooves made sucking sounds as they walked between the buildings.  This is Cottonwood Springs? Baker asked.  Pony nodded.  Never been here lieutenant? he said.  No, said Baker.  Never this far west of Kearny.  What is this place? 

Stage station mostly, said Pony.

A man emerged from the back of one of the log buildings.  Pony motioned Baker forward and handed him the lead to the pack horses.  He spurred his horse over to where the man stood.  Baker could see Pony speaking to the man, who pointed in a direction away from the buildings.  Pony touched his hat brim and rode back to Baker.

He’s out that way, said Pony.

Who?

Catcher, the man I’m lookin for.

Catcher?  Catcher who?

Just Catcher.  That’s his name.  A Pawnee.  May know somethin about the girl. 

How’s a Pawnee know what the Cheyenne are up to? he said.  I thought the Pawnee and Cheyenne were enemies.

They are.  Catcher was took by the Cheyenne as a boy.  Lived with em most of his life.  Anyhow he’s one helluva tracker.

They rode south two, three miles.  The camp was in the open, set between a pair of low, naked hills – an open military ambulance wagon, lean-to tarpaulin shelter, three horses.  A Dutch oven hung over a smoldering fire. 

The Indian stood at a skinning rack, bloody to the elbows, stripping hide from an antelope carcass.  He wore a faded cavalry blouse, breechcloth, moccasins.  His shoulder-length black hair was loose, topped by a turban of faded calico cloth.

He looked up as the riders approached.  Next to him a Sharps .50 caliber rifle leaned against a wagon wheel.  He looked at the riders for a long moment and went back to work.

Pony raised his hand and spoke to him in Cheyenne as he climbed down from his horse.

Catcher.  Catcher, my brother.  It’s good to see you again.

The Indian did not respond.  Pony approached him, offered his hand.

Good to see you, my brother, he repeated.

The Indian stopped working.  He was small in stature, but heavy-limbed.  His legs reminded Baker of short, muscular tree trunks.  His wide face wore a scowl, and his dark eyes shifted from Pony to Baker and back again. 

This here’s Lieutenant Baker, said Pony.

Pleased to make your acquaintance, said Baker.

The Indian did not take Pony’s hand, nor acknowledge Baker.

I heard you were dead, he said to Pony in Cheyenne.

Pony smiled and continued speaking in Cheyenne. It’s been many moons since we saw each other, brother.

Catcher turned back to the carcass.  When I heard you died I was glad, he said.

Pony, still smiling, looked at Baker and spoke in English.  Me n Catcher, we go back a long ways.

The Indian spit.  Pony looked at him.

Catcher, you know I meant to share the money with you.

The Indian did not look at him, but peeled hide away from the carcass, slicing tissue with a short knife.

Your voice, he said, sounds like the buzzing of flies over the squatting ground.  Go away.

I came here to make good with you, brother.  I came here to offer you more money, said Pony.

My ears can’t hear you.  Go away.

Pony walked to the wagon and put his hand on the pile of stiff hides in the barrow.

More money than ten wagons full of hides, he said.

The Indian’s right hand struck out like a serpent, and the skinning knife stuck, quivering, in the wagon box just beneath Pony’s hand.  Baker, still mounted, reached for his pistol.  Pony smiled at him.

Now then, lieutenant.  Me n Catcher’s just renewing our acquaintance.

Still smiling, Pony removed the knife from the side of the wagon box and walked over to Catcher.  He flipped the knife in his hand and, offering the handle to the Indian, spoke to him in English.

Say friend, how’s about a cup of whiskey?

They unloaded the pack animals and uncorked one of the jugs while Catcher finished the skinning.  He butchered the carcass and spitted a saddle of meat over the fire.  The roasting smell filled the air and stirred the men’s hunger as they sat cross-legged in the shade of the tarpaulin next to the wagon, each holding a shiny new tin cup.  Pony and Catcher each drank a cup and filled another before Baker consumed half his portion, all the while Pony smiling and jabbering a mishmash of Cheyenne and English words, among which Baker understood only ‘gold’ and ‘money.’  The lieutenant was unable to follow the thrust of presentation, nor could he read a reaction in the face of the Indian.

Finally Pony began speaking in English.

So Catcher, he said, you hear anything bout that white girl was stole over near Kearny a year last summer?  They say it was Cheyenne done it.

 The Indian shook his head.  I heard a foolish white man and his family were rubbed out near the fort.  No talk of a girl.

Was it the Cheyenne? Pony asked.

There are warriors from Little Wound’s band in this country, Catcher answered.  Hotamitanio – Dog Soldiers.  The old man chief cannot control them.  Now some Arapaho are with them.

To Baker’s surprise the Indian looked at him, then back at Pony.

You and the blue coat, he said.  You look for the girl?

Pony nodded, and the Indian’s mouth turned up at the corners, the shadow of a smile. 

He spoke in Cheyenne:  I think the Dog Soldiers will kill both of you.

What did he say? Baker asked Pony.

Catcher lifted his hand, palm up, to Pony, still speaking in Cheyenne.  Give me what you owe me, he said.  You will be dead soon.

What’s he saying?

Pony smiled.  He answered Catcher in Cheyenne.  The girl’s family will pay to find her.  I’ll share it with you, brother.

Baker watched as the expression on Catcher’s face changed.  Eyes narrowed.  The Indian rose and walked over to the wagon.

Rogers, Baker said, what’s he saying?

We’re negotiatin, said Pony.  Indians love to haggle.

Pony stood up and followed Catcher.

Go away, the Indian said.  Then harsher Cheyenne words:  Go away now, or I will kill you myself.

Hear me, Pony said.  They will pay us.  More than you can count.

Liar.

No.  Only the truth.

The Indian stepped back.

Truth?  He spat in the dirt at Pony’s feet.  No veho-e knows the sound of the truth.

pony made the sign for three hundred.  Listen to me.  They will pay you this much, he said.  The Indian looked at Baker, then back at Pony.

Gold?

Pony nodded.  Catcher’s eyes shifted again to Baker, who slowly uncrossed his legs and stood, brushed his shirtfront and wiped his hands on his trousers.  His palms were sweating.  He did not understand the argument, but the emotion was unmistakable; he would be ready for whatever happened next.

The Indian turned back to Pony and placed a brown hand, streaked with dried antelope blood, on his shoulder.  Catcher spoke in a low voice, the words still in Cheyenne.

My brother, he said.  If you try to cheat me again I will cut out your heart and feed it to the camp dogs.

Pony grinned.  He turned to Baker and threw his arms in the air.  Done, he said.  We start tomorrow.

MacDonald's Ranch

The lieutenant slept for three hours.  He did not know if Pony slept.

They saddled their horses and loaded the pack animals by moonlight, their shadows faded against the silvered ground.  The two men mounted and rode northwest.

The country was dark and quiet, save the occasional wail of a coyote, rejoined by unseen packmates or enemies far out on the prairie, away from the travelers.  Hours passed and the lieutenant’s horse fell behind; Baker looked up and realized he’d been dozing.  He spoke.

They do lend a brightness, don’t they?  These stars.

Pony reined up, sawed his horse around.

Voice carries a long way out here, lieutenant.  I’d recommend against conversation unless you want company.

They crested a low rise.  Pony stopped and the lieutenant rode up.  Ahead lay a broad stretch of tableland, and in the distance, a cluster of yellow lights.  The lieutenant pulled his field glass.

What is it? he said.

MacDonald’s ranch, said Pony.

Baker swung the glass up.  They were a mile out, but the air was clear and crisp, and moonlight edged the crude structures.  

Ahhh.  Looks like three buildings.

Pony clucked his horse forward.

We’ll stop in, he said.  Could be somebody’s heard somethin.  Wont hurt to ask.

There were six horses and two mules dozing in the pole corral next to the main building.  A small sod barn in back and a plank shed, open on the south side.  A root cellar.  Stacks of cordwood, cut and hauled from miles away.  The yard between the buildings was dark with weeds.

The main building was a single-storey soddie.  It had a sagging peak roof, topped with soil in which prickly pear, curly dock and blue grama sprouted.  In the center a black sheet metal stovepipe rose skyward, its faint tail of smoke noting the lateness of the hour.  A rack of elk antlers by the front door.  A broken scythe on the roof, tossed out of the way, the curved handle silhouetted against the glittering starfield.  Interior light poured from the building’s deep window wells on the side, casting a yellow glow on the wall’s courses of sod, highlighting stems of dried grass that poked through the seams like untrimmed whiskers.

Pony and Lt. Baker tied up at the corral.  Baker reached the entrance threshold first and waited, assuming Pony would knock and identify them.  Pony just looked at the lieutenant as he passed and brought his left shoulder hard against the heavy planking of the door.  It gave way, throwing a swath of yellow light out onto the prairie, spilling sudden, deep shadows behind everything in its path, until it weakened and was consumed in darkness.

Across the room Lt. Baker saw a plank and barrel bar and a man moving behind it.  He was large, with meaty hands and stout forearms that looked like short clubs.  He wore a filthy apron over equally squalid buckskins, blackened and greasy.  He reached up to his mouth and removed the stub of a cheroot from the corner.  His teeth were mostly gone and those remaining were little more than snags.  William MacDonald, proprietor.

Hallo, he said.  Come in strangers if yer white.

Howdy yerself you old pirate, said Pony.

The interior air was stale.  Lit by three oil lamps suspended from the rafters and several tallow candles, the room smelled of smoke and sweat, tobacco and sour furs.  MacDonald lifted his right hand to shield his eyes from the glare of the lamp directly over his head.   

Well sir.  Is it?  No.  Pony?  Is that you?  I’ll be damned.

Yes, Bill, I believe you will.

I heard you was dead, boy.

Can’t believe everthing you hear Bill.

Pony stepped up to the bar and shook MacDonald’s hand.

Godamighty Pony boy.  Still got your hair I see.

Still servin that poison Bill?

The lieutenant stepped up next to Pony.

Who’s your friend?

Oh.  This here’s Lieutenant Baker, Bill.

MacDonald reached out and enfolded the lieutenant’s hand in his own.  Although the trader’s hand felt rough and gritty, his grip was remarkably light. 

Howdeedo, Lieutenant.

It was then Baker saw the scar: a jagged furrow that gullied MacDonald’s cheek from the corner of his left eye to his jawline.  Baker couldn’t help it; his eyes were drawn to the wound.  

Helluva beauty mark aint she?  MacDonald said.  A gift from my second wife.  Arapaho, she was.    

MacDonald’s brown eyes sparkled beneath his bushy brows.  Bloodshot from decades of exposure to sun and woodsmoke, they yet held an incandescent luster, like Pony’s, the provenance of which the lieutenant correlated to the rigors of life on the frontier, and that peculiar madness induced by vast distances and relentless solitude.

I take it she held strong opinions, said Baker.

MacDonald slammed the bartop with his hand, raising dust.

And a goddamn deer antler, he said.  Haw. 

He reached back to a low shelf and picked up a chipped glass and set it in front of Baker.

What’ll you have, lieutenant?

Whiskey.

MacDonald produced a jug and poured.  Pony leaned forward.

Hows about me Bill?

This here’s for payin customers Pony.  You got cash?

Baker flipped a coin on the bar.

I’ll stand him to a toss, he said.

MacDonald picked up the coin and bit it.  He got a glass for Pony.

Be careful Bill, Pony said.  I’ll take my business elsewhere.

That’ll be the day, said MacDonald.

The lieutenant took a sip, a fireball that seemed to slow down as it slid down his throat.  His eyes watered.  He turned his back to the bar and tried to blink the tears away.  He felt as if he’d been punched in the windpipe.  He gasped.

Oh she’s got a little kick, said MacDonald.  Genuine Monongahela popskull.

Baker looked around the room, hoping to avoid eye contact.  The walls were lined with heavy sacks of beans, flour barrels and crates of tinned goods.  In the corner two men sat at a small table playing cards; an empty bottle lay tipped over between them.  Baker moved to end of the bar, pretending to examine some item while he regained his composure.

Bill I believe I’ll try anothern, said Pony.

You don’t mind lieutenant? asked MacDonald.

Baker merely shook his head.

So what are you two doin out here?

Pony lifted his glass, drained it.

Lookin for information, he said.  Little Dutch girl stole by Indians just west of Kearny last year.  Her family wants to know what happened to her.  You ain’t heard anything bout it, have you Bill?

Ahhhhhhh no.  No, I aint.  Which Injuns done it?

Looks like it might of been Cheyenne.

MacDonald looked at the two men in the corner.  Bus, he said.  Gibby.  Either a you heard anything bout a Dutch girl took by the Cheyenne the year past?  Over near Kurny?

Both men looked up.  Full beards and unwashed, shoulder-length hair.   Soiled clothing, patched and frayed.  They mumbled something to each other and stood, one grabbing the empty bottle from the table.  Around their waists each wore a sash, from the folds of which appeared the handles of large knives.  They shuffled to the bar, bringing with them a fetid reek of sweat and uncured hides and whiskey.  Bussard and Gibeau Batiste - hunters, trappers. 

Hallo, Pony boy, said Bussard.  He set the empty bottle down on the bar.  Bill, we’ll take anothern.  Hey Beau, lookey here.  A dead man.  Pony come back from the dead.

Gibeau, staring at Lieutenant Baker, turned to look.  Lord, he said, smiling.  Never seen a dead man upright before.

Boys, said Pony.  Hows the hide business?

Shit, said Bussard.  Me’n Beau’s pulled a hunert fifty since the snowmelt.  Six barrel of tongue, too.

You two seen or heard anything bout a young Dutch girl, stole by Injuns?

Dutch girl? asked Gibeau.

Over by Kearny, Pony said.  Year ago June.

Gibeau shook his head.  Aint heard nothin.  Bus, you remember that?

No, the brother said.  But we cut the trail on Lo and his brethren down on the Republican a fortnight ago.  Maybe ten of em.

Didn’t see no sign a no little girl though, said Gibeau.  Wasn’t no small bones in their campfire, was there Bus?  He laughed.

Baker turned.  I don’t see the humor in that sir.

Gibeau turned toward the soldier.  Bussard leaned over the bar to get a look at Baker.

Gibeau shoved a glass across the rough plank toward Baker.  Nothing to pout about, general.  Mebbe you just need another taste.  Drink up.  I’ll buy.

Baker picked up the glass and turned it upside down.  No. I don’t believe I will.

Gibeau leaned on the bar.  You know, he said, last year me n Buss run up against a couple of sassy soldier boys down at Fort Hays.  He looked at his brother.  Didn’t we, Buss?

Bussard shook his head. 

Yeah, said Gibeau, they was real uppity.  Thought that blue shirt give em license to insult everbody.  Me n Buss, we was forced to show em the error of their ways.

Right quick, said Bussard.

Gibeau squared himself to Baker.  Heres where you went wrong, he said.  Smart-mouth Yankees don’t prosper here.  If I was you, I’d step on out that door and ride back to wheresomever you come from. 

He reached into his sash and brought forth the large bowie knife.  Happy to lend a hand, he said.

Baker backed up a step, remembering his dragoon pistol was outside, in the holster attached to his saddle.

The sound of shattering glass.  Pony smashed the empty whiskey bottle on the bar, and in the next instant leapt upon Bussard, his right arm around the trapper’s neck, his left hand holding the jagged bottle to the trapper’s eye.

Tell you what Gibeau, he said.  Put that sticker away and I’ll try not to pop your brother’s window.

Gibeau hesitated, then lowered the knife.

That’s it, Pony said.  You know I’ll do it.  Now, lieutenant, go on ahead out that door.  I’ll be right behind you.  Baker moved to the door, Pony with him, dragging Bussard, the broken bottle just inches from the man’s eye.

Careful Pony boy, Bussard gasped.

You’re the one needs to be careful Bussy. 

Baker backed out the door.  Pony stopped at the threshold, still holding Bussard. 

Now you boys have a good evenin.  Bill set em up one on me, will you?  I’d wait a little bit before I hit this door if I was you.  Somebody might mistake your intentions.  Could get you shot.

He let go of Bussard’s neck and grabbed his hair, the broken glass still aimed at the eye.

Nice to be seein everbody again, he said.  He put his foot in the middle of Bussard’s back and kicked, sending the trapper sprawling into the room.  Pony disappeared out the door, shutting it behind him.

Gibeau helped his brother off the floor.

You alright Buss?

By God, Bussard said.  I think he’d a done it.

 

They rode in silence until the eastern skyline glowed.  They came to a shallow draw and dismounted and hobbled the horses, ate some jerked meat.

You think he would have used the knife?  Baker asked.

Hard to say, said Pony.  They have problems with the blue uniform.  The Batiste brothers are from Louisiana.

Southern sympathizers, said Baker.

From boot to hatband, said Pony. Not long ago tried to hire some Pawnee into fightin for the rebels. Hired me to translate for em.

What happened?

Well, they sought to grease the arrangement with a keg a whiskey, said Pony. When the Pawnee realized the price of a drink they inquired after rifles and cartridges so they could help their white brothers by killin ever Sioux they could find.

He shook his head.

Don’t think the heathens ever quite grasped the rebel proposition.  But the brothers kept talking and the Pawnee kept drinkin.  Finally the whiskey run out.  So did the Pawnee.

What did you do?

The only thing I could.  I got drunk.

 

The Search Begins

 

Two days later, on the second of May, as the sun broke the horizon the two men rode west out of Fort Kearny.  Pony led the pack horses through Dobytown in silence.  When they passed the last structure, he turned in his saddle and said, You know, lieutenant, this ain’t a frolic.  I won’t have time to tuck you in. 

    I require neither your permission nor your supervision, Mister Rogers, said Baker.  I’ll take care of myself, I assure you.

That so.

Yes.  It is.

You scrapped with these Indians yet, lieutenant?

Not yet.

Yes.  Well, I seen your horses and I seen your troops.

Make it plain, Mister Rogers.

Alright.  Willing aint the same as able lieutenant.  Not out here. 

Those were the last words the two men exchanged for the next ten hours, until late in the afternoon, when they halted near a spring at the mouth of a shallow canyon.  Pony moved among the pack animals as they drank.  Baker dismounted and stretched, loosened his saddle, and shielded his brow with his hat in the yellow afternoon light, surveying the green-gray prairie that overlay the earth in every direction, confusing distance until his eye could discern no scale, nor depth or height of any presence that might break the view of buffalo grass, soapweed, prickly pear.  Empty.  A lonely place.  Perdition.  

He spoke:  It has a kind of desolate beauty.

Pony did not look up. He murmured softly to the horses as his hands ran gently up and down their legs, inspecting hooves.

Far up in the pale, cloudless sky a Swainson’s hawk wheeled slowly in the rise of a thermal draft, its light breast feathers flashing momentarily like a struck match.  Baker uncorked his canteen and took a long pull.  He walked over to Pony and held it out.

Rogers, he said, you think we’ll be able to find the girl?

Pony looked at the canteen and at Baker, but did not drink.

Sooner or later we’ll likely run into somebody’s heard somethin.

So… you think she’s still alive?

Pony lifted another hoof.

If they didn’t want to take her that way you’d have found her with her family.  Indians don’t generally hesitate when it comes to warfare.

Warfare?  Against innocent women and children?

Pony stopped, looked at Baker.

Well now, you need to ask old Squaw Killer Harney about that. Ask him about how he unlimbered his guns on a Sioux village up on the Blue Water.

He turned back to his work.

Teach em a lesson, he said.  Hell, lieutenant, I’d say they learned it.

He dropped the hoof and looked at Baker.

Baker corked his canteen.

Know the heathen character pretty well, do you?

Heathen character? Pony asked.  Lieutenant, I’ll tell you a secret:  Indians is plagued by the same appetites and weaknesses as whitemen. 

He plucked some grass and held it up. 

You want to know what the difference is?  It’s this here.  This makes all the difference.  This country don’t give a damn about a man’s inventions or who he prays to.  Pay attention to this, lieutenant.  If you live long enough it’ll teach you all you need to know about Indians - and yourself, for that matter.

He let the grass blow through his fingers.

Hell, we’re just another tribe out here.    

Baker drew a deep breath.

Think we’ll ever be able to reach a peaceful settlement with them?

Pony smiled.

Well, I’ll ask you…  Think there’ll come a time when all us whites up and leave this country?

Of course not.

Pony shook his head.  Hell, Indian’s born to war anyway.  Most of em don’t want to see old age.  It’s gruesome out here. 

Baker turned and walked to his horse, looped the canteen over the pommel.

Tell me, Rogers, how’d you get the name?

Pony loosened the cinch on his saddle.

My mother’s name was Rogers.

No.  No, I mean Pony.

Pony didn’t reply.  He pulled his saddle and blanket from the horse, carried it to the foot of the slope on the canyon wall.

What are you doing? said Baker.

Horses need rest.  Me too.

Rest?  We could make another ten, maybe fifteen miles before dark.

Pony looked at him.

Suit yourself, lieutenant.  Go on ahead.

But… why stop now? Baker asked.

Pony looked up at the sky.

Sun’ll be down in a few hours.  That’s when I’ll be travelin. 

He spoke as he moved toward the pack horses.  Get outta the heat.  Draw less attention.

Baker paused, thinking.  Well, he said, I’ll gather some fuel.

Pony stopped.  No fires. Smoke’d be seen for miles out here.  It’s cold camps and night travel for now, lieutenant.  You want to be helpful, pull those loads.   I’ll rub the animals down.

They finished and spread their blankets and laid upon them, chewing pieces of jerked meat in silence, rifles beside them.  Both men stared into the distance as shadows of the hills lengthened in the hazy air.  The only sounds were the swish of the horses’ tails and the rip of the grass as it was grazed.  Pony spoke.

When I first come out here I worked for an old Frenchman who traded with the Indians.  Furs, ponies, all manner of things.  It was him give me the name.  Pony boy, he called me. I tended his stock.

What was his name? Baker asked.

Roubidoux.

He still around?

Pony shook his head.

In forty-nine a drunk pilgrim shot the old man dead over a game of cards at Laramie.

They hang him for it?

Weren’t necessary.  I run a skinnin knife through his windpipe.     

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Meta Bauer was not dead.  In the months following her disappearance from the wagon she lived among her captors.  She walked in their caravans across trackless vaults of earth and sky; heard their laughter and their speech and gained understanding of it; saw them dance and weep and sing and pray and also die, young and old alike, bathed in fever sweat or awash in blood, their black eyes glassy with pain. 

She learned to eat their pungent broths, the roots and herbs and marrow bones, the dried berries and roasted meat and raw organs that sustained them, and she endured with them the lack of these when the trees were naked and the rivers frozen and the snow lay deep.  She knew the name they called themselves.  And in time though still a child she saw revealed in their hunts and their warfare and in the stories they told in the glow of their night fires the warrant of blood that bound each unto all, and to the horses and dogs that lived with them and to the merest of things.

Meta Bauer was not dead, except to the life she lived before they made her one of them.